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17 December 2013 @ 05:53 pm
I can't do this.

Thanks for the good times, f-list.
17 December 2013 @ 05:50 pm
It's summer holidays. I've received the results of my exams. There's nothing more to do, than to await, with growing dread, the monster that is Year 12.

Also, I got locked out of my LJ from last year, casshira. So, I'm back here. Tumblr is too... how do I say it. Impersonal. My blog is pretty, yes, I have so many followers - so I feel like I'll destroy my nice little blog and turn into one of those Tumblr users who rant about the unfairness of their life etc etc... because I really don't want to whinge. I don't want to annoy people whose dashboards I'm on.

So, I'll annoy you guys instead - if anyone on my friends list still goes on here. I'll probably rant a bit about my life, the monotony of studying, Japanese dramas (particularly the ones Horikita Maki is in), and anime. I'm not really expecting anyone to read my stuff, haha. Just... this is a place for me to go these holidays, if I need.
Current Mood: hungryhungry
Current Music: time after time (piano instrumental) - mai kuraki
24 June 2012 @ 01:39 pm
like life is hurtling along, too fast, too fast for you to catch up, catch your breath? Like the future is a thing to be scared about, because you have no idea what you're going to do, or even what you want to do, and it's a fortress of nightmares and what-could-go-wrongs?

Do you ever feel like you're not in control anymore? That the ground might be swept off your feet at any moment, and you have no way of holding on?

Have you ever wanted to go back to those fairytale days of childhood, where the sunlight filters through the trees at just the right angle, where goodbyes only meant until tomorrow?
Current Mood: pensivepensive
20 June 2012 @ 02:02 am
I'm back.

After something like a year, I'm back on LJ. Not that anyone really missed me, I don't think haha. Well, I had migrated to Tumblr - but everyone started getting Tumblr accounts too. And honestly, sometimes I don't like people I know following me. I mean, it's kind of like a diary, in a way, somewhere for me to write my thoughts, amongst all the calm and pretty nature pics I reblog. And yeah, that's another thing - my blog had evolved to basically a nature blog, and whilst I love the willowy green trees and storming oceans and animals in flight, well, it takes up so much time. I don't get anything out of it, not really.

And maybe one day I'll go back to Tumblr, like how I'm coming back to LJ now. But until then... I'll shift my focus on something else.

I've missed LJ. I've missed proper spelling and grammar.
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Current Mood: cynicalcynical
Current Music: starlight - muse
21 June 2011 @ 09:29 pm
 Wow. I haven't been on here in a long, long time. The main culprit guilty of stealing my attention and time is Tumblr - reblogging pictures, writing short posts, gaining followers - it's all so easy. But I've missed LJ... everything about it, even the atmosphere is different, I swear, haha. I want to resurrect this journal (again!) but I can't promise that it'll be forever - I have school and homework and other commitments, it's all so busy and I can't go on the internet, constantly being distracted by the three most time-wasting sites - Facebook, Tumblr and LJ.

I would if I could, I guess, if I had enough time. But I just can't, I will have exams soon and I'm really scared that I'll do bad in them. It sounds melodramatic when I say that my results may as well dictate and shape the rest of my life - but I can't help but feel it's true. I'm terrified of failing, of disappointing and letting down people, like always. Sometimes I think that I would be much happier if I just ignored everyone and their expectation and judgements, and just did what I purely want to do. But we can't always have things our way.

But thanks guys, for sticking with me this long, if you have. I really appreciate it, I want you to know. Don't stop smiling, peoples. <3
Current Mood: stressedstressed
Current Music: love me - justin bieber
20 June 2011 @ 10:36 pm
A/N: This is my English assignment... and may I ask you guys a huge huge favour and tell me what you think? I was feeling uninspired but then I heard the wind whirling around outside - I love the wind. And I just decided to write this out. I didn't know what direction it was going until I was actually writing it... that's a good thing, right? I don't know, haha. Anyway, please tell me your honest opinion! Even if you think it's crappy and cliched, please tell me. I... have cookies? And eternal gratitude for anyone who critiques it? Haha, well, thank you in advance... xx
The wind howls outside
A raging dance of rustling branches
A song of nothingness
It must be cold out there

It sounds angry,
But i am safe from its wrath
The lamp shines through the window,
A beacon in the night,
And i wonder,
What is the wind?

How does something which is nothing
Become so powerful?
How does air, something so safe
Giving us life, a cushion against blows
Turn onto us,
And wreak havoc?

The wind brings change
Something we all fear
Something we are uncomfortable with
Who doesn’t want to keep things
The way they are?
So simple and uncomplicated

But everything must change
Sooner or later
It is impossible for anything
To stay frozen in time
Have you tried to keep water
From trickling through your fingers?
Have you ever tried to stop
Growing up?

For there to be life
There must be change
Life and time must go on
If the world did not change
It would be a dead, dead place

The wind brings us change
Whispering its condolences as it passes by
Here one moment, gone the next
It does not stop for anyone

And the wind is created from nothing
But it brings us everything
Current Mood: anxiousanxious
Current Music: don't hold your breath - nicole scherzinger
13 March 2011 @ 11:29 pm
 It's just past 11pm and yes, I should be nice and snug, tucked up in bed, dreaming sweet dreams! But noooo. I've just finished watching an episode of the Mentalist, and words do not adequately convey my adoration of the show, or more importantly, of Lisbon and Jane! Squeals, however, do, and I'm trying to keep from squealing out LOUD 'cause the rest of my family is sort of already asleep...

of silent nights and dreams of dancing and joy and carefree waysCollapse )
Current Mood: sleepysleepy
Current Music: piano music from the hyundai ad
13 March 2011 @ 04:36 pm
The lullaby of the rain
Twinkling drops of water
The cool wind, wet soil
The promise of a new beginning.
(and that is why we're different...)
Current Mood: draineddrained
Current Music: starlight - muse
12 March 2011 @ 10:04 pm
 Oh my, I haven't been on here for a long time, have I? I guess I could say school and homework caught up to me, but then again I can also say that I (*cringes*) got tired of LJ. And moved onto Tumblr. Yes, I've turned to the dark side of the world - where it is grammarless and capital letters do not exist. :|

I think I'll be going on here a bit more from now on - but I need to re-style my journal. I hate my theme at the moment and when I hate how something looks, I usually won't go on it. But yeah, I'll be going on more 'cause of a recent obsession with the TV show 'The Mentalist'... yes, that means hunting for cute icons and pictures! And where better than at the communities at LiveJournal...

So... any suggestions for good layout makers whose journals I can go stalking? >;D
Current Mood: tiredtired
Current Music: stuttering - fefe dobson
15 August 2010 @ 05:57 pm
currently: adding/selectively adding/not adding

This is a 95% friends-only journal. Well, it was. I'm currently in the process of resurrecting it and completely re-designing everything, so that may soon change.
twinkling of the rain, roaring of the thunder. the wind hits my face, and i smile.Collapse )
Current Mood: hyperhyper
Current Music: stuttering - fefe dobson